Hi Dillon,
Life can be very confusing and all sorts of stuff are happening to you. You really need a counsellor to talk to either one from school or even your family Doctor. But do remember there is nothing wrong with you, you are a young person who is exploring their thoughts and emotions. You may be transgendered, you may not be. There is nothing wrong with either.
Many young men do not have girlfriends, and that is also normal and nothing to be frightened of.
I really do suggest you talk to your school counsello to help you get advice and help.
And we are always here for you
Hugs
Cindy