Oh you're not alone. It bothers me immensely that I will never bear a child, never have the experience of it. The best I'll ever be able to do is adopt, and in truth, that's not a bad option. There are too many unwanted and unloved children in the world.

Nevertheless, it hurts that it's something I simply cannot have, no matter what... it's a fact of life that I can't do anything about. How nice it would have been... but alas. It is what it is. Le sigh

With current technology it's likely that an xy individual could gestate an embryo to term. A version on an ectopic pregnancy could work without a uterus being present however ectopic pregnancies are usually terminated one way or another as the embryo rarely survives. Another hurdle is, unless you started hormones early enough to have "genuinely female" hips, the likelyhood of successfully giving birth is very, very low. "Male hips" simply lack the correct structure to allow a featus to pass through. It would almost certainly have to be a Caesarian birth. Currently it's simply too dangerous. Not so much for the mother as it if for the child. To the point that (in my mind at least) its a series of unfair risks to needlessly place on the health of a baby. 20 years or so, who knows? With stem cell and cloning technologies advancing perhaps they'll be able to give us "proper" hips and bio-identical internal female reproductive structures.

Like Keaira I fathered a child with a cis-woman. After he was born, she left me, and we shared custody. I have to say breast pumping made it possible for me to share feeding my infant son, so we are very bonded. And, I also want to hold every baby I see - not that I get to that much.

One of the aha moments that helped start transitioning was realizing that I actually was depressed at never being able to get pregnant and give birth - in spite of everything I experienced second hand. My son's mother's labor was 36 hours. I was there the whole time as her breathing coach.

I am grateful to be a co-parent of my son, and I will always feel the lack of bearing a child.

I really want to be pregnant


Just get a dog and put it in a pouch

Quote from: batgirl on January 21, 2012, 02:15:20 AM
I really want to be pregnant


Just get a dog and put it in a pouch

meaning?

Quote from: batgirl on January 21, 2012, 02:15:20 AM
I really want to be pregnant


Just get a dog and put it in a pouch

That is kind of a confusing thing to say, care to elaborate?

I was just being silly. I wish i could get pregnant too. It's the most painful part of my disporia:(

Occasionally somtimes.

I usually discourage such thoughts in myself by reminding myself about the logistics of raising a child (Presumebly on my own at my current time in my life) but those ideas are usually counterbalanced by the hypothetical if such a thing were to somehow happen to me I could never say no :/

If I ever get into a stable long term relationship I'm sure it will be a more difficult ache to ignore.

I used to think i was alone in this thought, guess i'm not. I also used to have dreams of at least being able to have my own children through pregnancy but ah, it sucks but it's not life or death (to me anyway).