Hi, been lurking. Not really the type of person to do this, but since that's part of the larger problem probably should. And my gender therapist said it'd certainly be helpful. I'm 22, born a boy but always imagined I'd just miraculously get to be a girl when I grew up, and was pretty lucky in that I was spared puberty until my late teens. Since then, angry-denial-hermit mode, but coming out of it now and starting to patch something like a normal-ish life together. Started the therapist process in, uh, November-ish, and he's said just one more session before he sends me on to the endocrinologist (yay new standards of care). I've been kind of a taciturn, inhibited person since puberty (even this is all worded rather stiffly and cold, yeah), but am giddy at maybe getting to be an expressive and happy, genuine person again. This isn't really offering a whole lot about myself I'm realizing, but I loosen up after a while. I hope :\

ok should probably just post this before I stuff it with even more self-effacing

Hi Empy, welcome to Susans! Just start posting and we'll get to know you a little better. You'll meet lots of new friends here. See you around, hugs, Devlyn

Hello and welcome. 
Once we realise who we really are it makes things so much clearer.  HRT will help settle things as well.
Have fun, it's a fun if sometimes bumpy ride.

Karen.

First of all welcome.

Quote from: empy on January 27, 2012, 03:08:40 AM
I've been kind of a taciturn, inhibited person since puberty (even this is all worded rather stiffly and cold, yeah), but am giddy at maybe getting to be an expressive and happy, genuine person again. This isn't really offering a whole lot about myself I'm realizing, but I loosen up after a while. I hope :\

If it helps don't think of yourself as inhibited or stiff, but rather the walls you built to hide your true self are inhibiting and stiff.  So in that spirit I say "Ms. Empty tear this wall down!!"  HRT will help others see the physical aspects.  And as you learn to accept transness and lose guilt and shame, you will find your true self coming through loud and clear.  I found that HRT helped with that too, because I FELT right and it was a forward moving action to be who I really am.

Hi Empy,Welcome to Susan's,this is a great place to be.Hugs,Rachael.