ok so where to begin, um well im a FTM, 20 years old....(i seriously thought i would have more to write but all i am doing is looking at the computer screen!!)

OK here it goes i first knew that i wasn't right in the body or the head when i was about 12 years old and wasn't told what i was till i was about 16 and had established an identity for myself, so i had gone a few years not knowing. so i was in therapy for about 3 months and didn't know what i was going to about me. so i decided about 2 years ago that i only wanted top surgery done. oh and before i forget i am SO!!!! passable, but i have not had T injections AT ALL!!! for proof i will post pictures. anyway, i had no emotionally support growing up from my mother and my father was never there nor is he there now nor is my mother for that matter. I'm basically a newborn when it comes to being me. which is freakin' crazy due to how old i am. there is a lot more about me that i can talk about its just that my fingers didn't want to do the walking tonight, i got some stuff going on in my life that i need to deal with before i can really warm up to a site that i have never heard of nor been on, but i can say that i am thankful that this site does exist. if you want to talk with me on a personal note text me (# removed) tell me how you got the number and a capital letter in the first sentence. thanks. may be a bad idea posting my number but its worth a shot if i can get some people to talk to who UNDERSTAND WHAT I AM GOING THROUGH. Thanks. Danny

Well welcome good sir

It is an overwhelming feeling when you start being yourself for the first time. I felt that theres so much that I have missed out on and my priorities mostly changed. Its a life changing decision and its hard for cis people ot understand. I would say that although Susans can be a great pace for support there really is no replacing a qualified gender therapist (with a good reputation), they can reall help you put things in perspective.

Welcome to the forums.

Read the rules, yada yada.

I'd just advise you not to post your number on a publically accessible forum, though, even if you need someone to talk to. Loads of people out there who would abuse it one way or the other.

See you around!

Hello and welcome.
Don't worry about age. There are lots of us here who have a lot more years up, and only just getting started on our journeys.  Don't be any harder on yourself than you would be on your best friend. Or as Kate Bornstein put it, traet yourself as an honoured guest in your own life.

Karen.

i mean i know it was a bad idea to post my number but in my opinion if it gets me a few people to talk to about who i am then its worth the shot and who cares about the rednecks or the gender racist in the world as long as i have people to talk to? ive gone years not knowing who i was and im not going to let some ignorant people get me down because they think were an abomination to the world. ->-bleeped-<- that!, i am who i am because of the world ->-bleeped-<- what everyone else says. anyway its great that i found this site to talk about me

Honey, if you want to reach a ripe old age, yu still have to know when to duck, and not make a target of your self.    Enough abuse will come our way by chance, we don't have to invite it.    Take care of yourself and my you live until you are 95.   No matter what you think, the Grand Canyon is still to wide to jump on a motorcycle. Bye

Hi ya.

It's really great to see you here. I know so many of us here will identify with all you've so far written.

As you settle in, you'll feel more comfortable about what to post and where. But it's great that you've jumped straight in.

Really looking forward to reading more from you.

Congratulations, Danny.