Hey guys. I'm almost 25, and currently identify as genderqueer. I've come out as FTM twice in the past, but I had very little support and so it seemed to just slip my mind. I feel like at my age I should be more comfortable with my body. So I thought gender therapy might be something for me to consider. I currently present as female, but I guess I dress rather androgynous. I tell myself I am fine with being a girl, as long as I don't look too much like a girl, or get treated too much like a girl. Contradicting huh? I hate being called "ma'am" or being referred to as a "woman" or a "lady". One thing that keeps me from saying yes I want to transition is I would really like to have my own biological children someday. But when I think about myself, I see myself in a male role. I hate being forced to play the girl. I don't know what I want, and it's been bothering me a lot lately. What do I do?

P.S. I live in Amarillo TX and so far I have found no gender therapists.

Hi Crash,
To answer the question. It's a definite YES. Even if it's to allay whatever doubts you may have about the whole process of transition.

I'm not too familiar with your territory, as I'm on the other side of the 'Creek', however I assume you have checked Susan's resource section for therapist? If not have a look otherwise I 'll have to wait for a 'local' to drift by to assist.

Be safe, well and happy
Lotsa huggs
Catherine

I think you definitely should get some counseling about it. It's obviously an issue worth investigating, and that's a good way to do it.

Idk Amarillo. Here's all I found so far. MtF blog that hasn't been updated since 09.
http://amarillotg.wordpress.com/

I know we have some Texans here. Hopefully they'll chime in.

- edit cuz I forgot to link the outdated blog -

these two might be the closest to therapists who work with gender stuff, but since neither specialize, would have to call them and ask. :|
http://therapists.psychologytoday.com/rms/prof_detail.php?profid=32107
http://therapists.psychologytoday.com/rms/prof_detail.php?profid=49410

Thanks for the tips so far. I'll look into what you've suggested and hope I may get more advice.