...to go full time, that is. i've been terrified to tell my dad and sister (my mom is fine with it). i'm seeing a great psychologist whom i've been seeing for years and i think she could help me figure out a way in which i'm comfortable to come out. i'm very, very scared. no, not scared, nervous.  Any advice or experience?

There are quite a lot of people dealing with FtM as you are.

But if I may say, if that's you in the photo, you're already there. Why do boys never seem to smile?

Just want to wish you well buddy.  It's natural to be nervous.

Okay, so I have been completely balking on this... But, I'm going to be out of town for a week and I feel that it would be best to send my father an e-mail. We have never really been able to communicate verbally. And I'll be seeing my sister, but that's another story. Ugh, so stressful!!! 

It's scary at first. All the information in the world can't hold a candle to experience, though, and I bet 6 months from now you'll be a pro at a lot of things that are intimidating now. Sometimes you just have to jump in.