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Disconnected from myself?

Started by Rabbit, February 21, 2012, 02:55:50 PM

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Rabbit

So, I have been having a lot of moments where I am kind of disconnected from myself lately (well, for a few months).

Like, I catch myself now and then talking or acting or doing things in a certain way that just don't seem like me. When I record videos, it is really obvious.

And, then there is the entire emotional thing. I am really disconnected from all the various emotions. I get upset, or happy, or whatever... and I just shrug and move on and think nothing of them. I mean, while they are happening I'm there... but when I look back it is like looking at a stranger?

I don't know, it is hard to explain. Just kind of a strange feeling and I was curious if anyone else had anything similar? Maybe I just need to get used to things still?
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Elsa.G

You are not alone, i have this feeling quite a bit as well. i think it has to do with being overwhelmed. It's possible that something is bothering you even subconciously and you are coping by disconnecting yourself from your body. I have had this problem since i was a teenager and i know the exact feeling you describe. Most of the time when i look at myself in the mirror i feel like im looking at a stranger.
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shortNsweet

I agree that it could deal with being overwhelmed. I know I can get this way (like I am right now) when a lot of change is happening.
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rachl

I'm also experiencing something similar. There are a lot of really interesting personal identity questions related to transition.
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justmeinoz

If you are suffering from Depression it could be Depersonalisation (not to be confused with Disassociation).

I had it for ages, sort of like experiencing everything from inside a bubble.  Apparently it is a defence mechanism the brain uses when things are too much.  In my case, once  I realised was Trans the Depression lifted, and the  Depersonalisation stopped.
"Don't ask me, it was on fire when I lay down on it"
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Rabbit

Nope, I'm not depressed at all. I have been disconnected from things before, but it was way different than this.

With this, I am still there... I am part of things... until I look back at what just happened and don't see "myself".

Ehh, I dunno, just is a strange feeling haha. Glad more people know what I'm talking about , at least I know I'm not crazy :P
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