please help!!! I'm so scared! i think my vagina is perforated, it has a hole, tear and when i douche, the fluids somehow end up in my bowels! i immediately have to have a bowel movement but it is only water, nothing solid. when i dilate there is this very unattractive smell on the tip of my stents. i smell is and its not something that scream VAGINA! but not really feces either. its late so i really can't call the DR now. also, yesterday i finally removed the catheter and yup, i have burning after i urinate! so off to the ER, i have a damn UTI! i feel so scared. here is my story
on 7/6 i had surgery with dr reed in miami, i guess things went well or at least i thought! I'm young, 26. so the recovery process was a bit much, i've had other things and by far this was the most sustained discomfort i've experienced. i had chills, small fevers and even hot sweats! least to say i was NOT pleased. my dr brushed all things off as if they were normal "this is not unique, this happens all the time" i was told this when i called DR to complain about bladder pains, and fevers (101.2) and sweats. on the 7th day or 6th, not sure, my packing was removed, he and his sweet nurse were amazed at how lovely it looked 7 days post, and how fab it would be.... i imagine they tell EVERYONE this to ease comfort! the vagina is UGLY AS HELL at this point! but um, ok i never had one before so i'll shut up. so DR forcefully shows me how to dilate! it is very unpleasant! i ask does it suppose to hurt like it does now! its not something i think i can do 3 TIMES A DAY! for 15 mins! no, sorry! he does it for all of 2 mins and then shows me how to douche, and thats it! i leave the office feeling very dumb and very unfamiliar with my new vagina, or how to dilate myself properly! all i remember is that if u push down, this equals disaster!
a few days later, around day 10, I'm still getting fevers and my bladder is still feeling very odd yet familiar! when i say familiar i mean, UTI familiar! i have been getting them for YEARS and do not know y! just know the signs! but being that i have a catheter, i do not actually feel the peen going thru the urethra. again I'm dismissed by DR reed. day 14, i remove catheter, as per instructed and sure ensure when i pee.... it burns! so this wasn't NORMAL! like i assumed! , i need to see a damn dr asap! after my ER visit! its confirmed, i have blood in my urine! i have a UTI...
i do not want to really admit that i may have a damn hole inside my new vagina! or that i could have caused it! I've ALWAYS been cautious, almost too cautious! only person to dilate me with confidence was DR REED, and this was the only time that it hurt!.... i'll call him in the morning! but lord am i scared of what this will mean! I'm so sick of RECOVERING! i don't feel like it was a mistake YET, but i am not happy with something, i can't figure if its my choice in DR.