Hey everyone. It's been so long since I've last posted here, and even before I was not horribly active. Many changes have occurred in my life since I last posted here, such I graduated high school, turned 19, started seeing a gender therapist, and stuff.

So since I highly doubt anyone remembers me (Which doesn't bother me in the least. To be honest, I wouldn't remember me either!), here is a re-introduction of myself.

My name is Keagan, I'm 19, FTM, and pre-everything. It's been about two, maybe three years since I've accepted the fact that I am trans. I kinda fell out of touch with a majority of the trans community to develop my own opinions on myself. I never doubted my gender, but I guess I had to take some time away to really figure my things out. I've mostly figured things out now and how I need to get to my ultimate goal of transitioning, so I'm ready to slowly reintroduce myself to the community.

As for what I like, I love collecting asian ball jointed dolls, photography, and um, video games I guess. I don't know I really don't have many hobbies anymore since I graduated high school. Isn't that backwards? For a while after I graduated high school, my mental health got really bad and I lost interest in a lot of things. But in order to transition I need to be mentally stable, so I need to take the steps I need to take. I think reconnecting would be a good step.

Yeah sorry this is all discombobulated. I'm exhausted, but as I was laying down in bed, I just had the strongest urge to reconnect with everyone here even though I don't really remember anyone too well. It's been about a year! Maybe a year and a half so cut me some slack haha.

So yeah. That's all I really have to say! Hope to see you all around.

Hi Keagan!

Welcome back. It is always nice to get a brother back in the family. Please stay?

Huggs

Maegan

Hi Keagan,
Welcome back to the funny farm. Hard place to stay away from isn't it? The most remarkable people in the world all live here; and it is indeed an honour and privilage to be here.

Well the tea and coffee are still in the same place, and we now have the CWA ladies (Country Womans Association - Australia's Govt in residence. Don't believe what the other parties tell you. They don't ahve a clue who's running Oz), serving scones on the back verandah every Wednesday morning.

You appear to be in a better place, mentally, this time around, which is a major forward move for you. Pleased you have been able to keep the goals in sight. Anyhow, be pleased if you stay a while longer this time.

Be safe, well and happy
Lotsa huggs
Catherine

Welcome back young feller.  As long as you know who you are, you are ahead of 99% of the world's population, who don't think about it at all. 
As for transition, I personally think it is like the question "how long is a piece of string?"  "long enough to stretch from one end to the other." 
It will take as long as you need, and want.  There is no right or wrong, and anyone who knows anything about it will agree that you set the pace, regardless of what anyone else thinks.

Karen.

Hi Keagan, we saved your seat! See you around, hugs, Devlyn

Thank you for the warm welcomes everyone.

Maegan - Yes I definitely plan on staying this time around and being slightly more active than I was before. I tend to lurk but I need to break that habit lol.

Catherine Sarah - Yes it is! Even for the year or so I was away I kept thinking about this place. xD Then last night I just had to rejoin. I don't know what came over me haha. And yeah, I am in a better place than I was a year ago, I hope so anyway! I'm really working on quitting my self-injury addictions with the support of the people in my life and working toward my transition. Even thinking about going back to school! I took a year off after high school to sort some things out, which was a double edged sword. But I think I'm ready to go back to school.

justmeinoz - Thank you! Yes, I've been really trying to learn who I am. It's been an interesting journey so far. Personally I'm ready to transition, I need to now. But because of my history of poor mental health and the fact that I have an addiction to self-injury, it's been hard to get the ball moving. It doesn't help being diagnosed with Borderline Personality Disorder either. :/ People blame the BPD for me being trans instead of accepting the fact I am trans. I am absolutely determined to prove them wrong though. So while it's happening slowly, it's going to happen. I'll make sure of it.

Devlyn - AWW YEAH MY SEAT IS STILL HERE.  Thank you very much!

Keagan, I assume addiction to injuring yourself is the same as the addictions myself (alcohol) and others face. We support each other here in the Addiction forum, maybe I'll run into you over there. Hugs, Devlyn

Hiya Keagan!
It's nice to see another bjd lover, tell me about your guys and girls (photos?)! I've just got the one girl at the minute, but she's gorgeous.
My story's pretty similar to yours, and I'm a gamer as well.
Anywho, welcome back and all that jazz.

alskdfjsaldkf YAY another BJD lover! Small world out there haha! Do you mind if I send you a PM? I have six dolls at the moment so if I were to talk about them all here I'd completely derail my thread. xDD Plus I can talk non-stop about them. Seriously, when somebody mentions the term "BJD" I'm just like "whoa buddy you sure you wanna talk about this with me? I won't shut up!"

I own four boys and two girls so far. Have plans for at least another girl and a few more boys. I also have plans for an FTM doll. ^^ He will be my first MSD too! My current sizing goes like this:

Two SD13 sized boys.
One SD17 sized boy.
One Yo-SD sized boy
One SD13 sized girl
And One Yo-SD sized girl.

But yeah, I will definitely hook you up with photos of my dollies in exchange for photos of your girl lmao. Just send me a PM or let me know if it's okay to PM you.

And yes, I recently got back into the gaming scene when Skyrim came out. Then after Skyrim came Saints Row the Third and LA Noire and Doom II on the Xbox Arcade! I still have to get passed the first dungeon on Skyward Sword for wii. I've missed out on so many games on my video gaming hiatus that I need to catch up on.

Devlyn - Yes, self-injury is an intense psychological addiction due to the fact it releases a high amount of chemicals in your brain when you inflict pain on yourself. I forget what chemicals exactly, they're on the tip of my tongue but I can't remember. I know adrenaline is one...

I've been trying to quit self-injury for years now. I know it's mostly a psychological addiction, but I swear I go through withdrawal if I haven't cut for a while. I start shaking and getting phantom pains and it's just generally not a fun experience. I'm about a month and a half clean though. Hopefully I can continue on the road of recovery. I always tend to slip up around the two month mark.

It's totally cool if you wanna PM me. I'd PM you now, but I'm heading to bed.

I was sick as a dog when I stopped drinking, and felt the effects of quitting for a long time. You need to be busy and in  a supportive group around your two month danger point. Or at the South Pole! Hugs, Devlyn