Yeah.agree with pretty here. Sounds like you need some time by yourself, people you love might hold you back in your transition,if you are gonna do that journey. My girlfriend broke up with me,I had a horrible heartace,painful as hell.But left by my self,I could finally get to myself. Some people who love me,but refuse to see the boy I am,they have to go. If someone tries to hold you back,and telling you,"oh you´re not the girl I used to know" etc. Then they are basically refusing to see who you are,they are holding you back,and they have to realize that they dont really know who you are. And maybe its time to be a bit clear about that.