Hi Lee,
A warm Aussie Easter welcome to Susan's family. Thank you so much for sharing what might appear to be awkward, a genuine part of yourself. We appreciate the trust you have in us.
You sound pretty normal to me, so give it a little time, a little though and introspection and you'll find that absolutely wonderful person you are, inside, coming out.
You'll no doubt find along the way, unique experiences and feelings you never thought possible. Embrace them, they are uniquely yours to treasure. Look forward to hearing more of you in time to come, in the meantime, be safe, well and happy
Lotsa huggs
Catherine