Hi.
I have never been part of a forum before... so I am not sure how this all works.
But this is what I am hoping to find here: a place where I can ask questions(and hopefully get suggestions), get support, make friends, and give all that in return.
Here is my background relative to this forum:
I am 19, and have recently concluded myself to be Androgynous. Growing up I never openly questioned my gender. I had a difficult time fitting in and being comfortable around everyone, I never had any real friends until Highschool. Because I was born biologically female, I threw myself into that gender roll with gusto, in an attempt to forge ties and be accepted. I worked so hard to be what I thought I was supposed to be that being myself never crossed my mind until I met an FTM transexual. Since I began my quest for self a little over a year ago I have spent much of my time searching for information and sites to give me clues, taken countless online "quizes" in desperation, and tried very hard not to rule out possibilities. It has been a very stressful year for me, between confusing relationships (romantic and otherwise), starting college, struggling for independence from my parents, dealing with financial problems (already), and deeper issues that I am still struggling with, the self-discovery has felt like trying to navigate a boat on the open ocean and in the densest fog.
I only know one gender variant person, but he is not androgynous, and has difficulty helping me and talking with me sometimes. He often seems, in his advice, to be attempting to convince me that my convictions need re-evaluating, and the steps I have taken thus far to express myself honestly are either unnecesary or confused. Sometimes he seems to over-simplify my situation, or nudge me towards a gender pole. I hope to meet more people with different experiences, so I can hopefully clear the fog over my own path.
I hope this post isn't too long-winded or complicated... I am just afraid to mis-represent myself.
Thank you for your time.
-Andy
