Thought it was time to introduce myself to everyone.
I been looking at Susan's for a few weeks now. I've done a lot of reading on the forums (for the mods - including the rules). Been in a few guest chats with some of the existing members (waves at Alice, Caroline and LynnER). At first I was a bit hesitant about signing up (huge trust issues because of a difficult childhood). But those anxieties have been dispelled by the people I have talked to and the responses on the forum's. Everyones so great, supportive and caring. People like tink and they way they respond to questions, responses and posts have both impressed and filled me with hope that the soul of mankind isn't as poisoned as I believed while growing up.
A little bit about myself then. I'm a 38 year old female with something hanging between my legs that was meant for someone else. I'm in the early stages of transitioning (counselling, doctors, shrinks) and am pretty damn sure I'm TS but the near future should confirm that. Similar story to others I guess. Have always know I was a girl even though my body didn't reflect it. Have a fantastic partner who has known about my 'gender' for a long time but is only more recently coming to fully understand the implication. I've tried to suppress my female side for most of my life to meet the expectations of those around me but frankly can't continue to live in that state anymore. I'm sick of not being the person I really should be and everything that comes with it (depression, loss, jealousy etc) is now to the point of overwhelming my day-to-day life. I want and need to be a woman and I'm starting on the road to make it happen. I already feel the lose, the changes to relationship. The intimate relationship I will loose with my wife b/c of it, the sacrifices are huge but the alternative is to bleak to live with.
I look forward to many conversations and know there are people out there for me. Thankyou all.
