@Geek: Yeah, I get that. And the thing is...transition is a life-and-death thing for me. Definitely. In my current 'unable to transition' position, I'm borderline nonfunctional. I have horrific dysphoria, and I wonder why I bother to get up every day. But for me, transition doesn't involve taking T. It does involve top surgery, but T isn't a part of it for me.
Occassionally I wish I had the genetics to pull off androgyny while on T (and have substantial clit growth...during a time when I was considering a low dose of T, I considered having meta if it grew enough for such a thing to be worth it to me, because I'll NEVER be able to have sex in this body, I can't even look down there, but eventually I figured it probably wouldn't grow enough and that I'd be stuck with the freakily high sex drive while unable to even look at it and it'd be a bit of a hellish situation), but I know I don't and being non-T is basically the only transition option for me.
Also, I'm obsessed with my hair 😛 I don't really register people's faces, but I do register their hair, and baldness...nope.