I'm a younger member (early 20's). I've been self medicating for three months now (I know it's bad, but I have no other option). My results appear to be much faster than everyone else that i've read about online. I've always been small and semi girly so this may play a part. My stomach is very much fem as are my bottom now (which has always been flat) and my breast are swollen. This is all great. One thing has occurred now though that has me very worried. - I can no longer perform my evening ritual

I feel so much like a failure now. It feels so weird. I've tried and tried with no luck. Today while trying I had a totally new feeling. It was good but weird/bad all at the same time. I can't describe it only to say that i'm very confused right now and don't know what to do. You expect one thing and then its gone. Is it a good thing or a bad thing? I don't know how to describe what i'm feeling right now.

Don't stress to much hun.  lol Trust me as a regular of date night your gonna worry its broken, but it's more that your thinking and worrying about it.  How you get aroused changes and well if your worried its not going to happen.  But I promise that it's not broken, you just won't use it as much.

I like how you referred to it better! I just don't know though. I feel so weird. Almost like crying  this hasn't happened before! I have never cried in years

It's to be expected with HRT, but is more than compensated for by the increased sensitivity of other parts of the body, and the ability to have genuine whole-body girl type orgasms.    Cis guys can achieve this if they can avoid ejaculation and continue stimulation.  Trust me it's so much better. 

You can start with massage oil and nipple play and move on to touch elsewhere on the body.  You need the lightest possible touch, just before the point of removing your hand.  Relax and take as long as you need, going as slow as possible, and all sorts of sensations will come to the surface.  Even better with a partner who is tuned in.  Enjoy. 

Karen.