Thanks for the reply Rita. When not acting like a guy, that is when I am really being me, I cry quite easy. Movies, tv shows, conversations, sad stiries, happy stories, just about anthing. I have always been this way. I can hide it to fit the male role.

Quote from: mementomori on May 23, 2012, 12:37:28 AM
this is why i only ever date bisexuals

I've done this for my whole life without ever thinking about why until recently. Right now after telling my girlfriend about everything and starting to seek help, I'm incredibly thankful that girls who like boys and girls like me, too.

I'm weeks away from my divorce being final- my desire to transition isn't the primary reason for our split, but it's still a big one. I'm not even saying it's really on the level of "she didn't want to be with a woman." It was more that since I wasn't being honest with myself, that contributed to me not communicating well enough/not being open enough with her- I was a ->-bleeped-<-ty husband, but I think many reason I sucked at the marriage were rooted in my denial of/refusal to tackle my gender issues.

Lame, huh?

Quote from: The Tomboy Transgirl on May 23, 2012, 02:25:09 PM
I'm weeks away from my divorce being final- my desire to transition isn't the primary reason for our split, but it's still a big one. I'm not even saying it's really on the level of "she didn't want to be with a woman." It was more that since I wasn't being honest with myself, that contributed to me not communicating well enough/not being open enough with her- I was a ->-bleeped-<-ty husband, but I think many reason I sucked at the marriage were rooted in my denial of/refusal to tackle my gender issues.

Lame, huh?

Not at all, many of us were similarly withdrawn.  It can be a very effective coping tool even if you seem dead inside to others.

This is one of the few areas where we can show how important our transitioning is and how valuable it can be.  When we start that transition we are able to open up and share SO much better.  Yes it is terrible that we hid away from them for so long, but that newfound openness is a great gift.