Ok I'm going to be a narcissistic attention seeker for a bit. I could really use some "it's ok to be me" messages right now. It's normal and a valid need to be told this once in awhile, so I shouldn't feel ashamed for asking. Now I just need to convince myself of that.
It's ok for me to be boy. It's ok for me to be a girl. It's ok for me to be fluid and changing. It's ok for me to be weird. It's who I am and that's ok. It's ok to be me. I am valid. I am real. I am ok.
Somewhere, somehow, there have got to people who can accept me right? Not everyone thinks I'm a freak or a fake or impossible or crazy or a waste of time and space or irrational or whatever other things people think about me.

What is "weird"?  Isn't that a relative term?  I mean, what may be weird to you is not weird to me.  I don't think that being yourself is weird.  There is always somewhere people will accept you.  Online, you are accepted and cared about here.  I don't really know you, but I care about you.  If someone ever said you are "a waste", they are the ones who are crazy.  How can you be a waste? 

You seem to know who you are, and that is wonderful.  I know it is far easier to say, than to believe but, who cares what others say.  I say, be yourself.  Who ever that is.  If yourself is male (at this time) be male.  If yourself is female (at this time) be female.  If it is in the middle (again, at this time) be in the middle.  Just be you.  You are special, and wonderful.

Quote from: Edge on June 03, 2012, 11:47:48 AM
Somewhere, somehow, there have got to people who can accept me right? Not everyone thinks I'm a freak or a fake or impossible or crazy or a waste of time and space or irrational or whatever other things people think about me.

Edge, the best message I can give you is that there's no one right way to be a person (or a male or a female, or genderqueer). People who do not appreciate the good things you do or the courageous way you live your life do not deserve even a moment of your attention.

Being genderfluid as you are is not a crime. It is a part of you, and since you are a beautiful person, it is a beautiful part of you. (May not feel beautiful to you because it causes so much angst. But please believe me. All parts of you are beautiful, even the one's you sometimes wish would go away.)

Hugs to you. I look forward to reading your posts here. You and I are incredibly different people, but I always learn something. Thanks for posting.

I don't know if you believe in a higher being but, I saw on a young child a shirt which read, "God don't make no junk."


Somehow (if you disregard the double negative) that sums it up.

Hah, being self-centred... what we get accused of when we transition... as --- NOBODY HAS ASKED US, to simply deciding, wanting to be our SELF.

What be the alternative? Being EGO centred, GREAT! Now how cool is that? Living up to everyone's expectations - till the last nail breaks. That's what is called for - by society and most that comes with it.
CONFORM, stick to the NORM.

Some folks rather live a life of misery and make everyone else about them miserable.
Calling one self-centred and are themselves on one big ego-trip. Those are the SELFLESS. Ever so righteous, defending their positions and ever so often their depression for being ever so 'well adjusted' and selfless...

Now go take your pick.
I decided on being myself i.e. centred on who I am, myself, not fitting into someone else's idea of what I aught to or should be.

Though never forget... everything has it's price! So has being oneself, self-centredly

Take care,
Axélle

Thank you, Brooke, agfrommd, Kat, and Axélle. I feel better now.
I look forward to the day when I can say this stuff to myself and it will stick.

Thanks Casey. lol Girls are hot. Nothing wrong with liking them.

Thanks. I've still got a few years before a) I can afford anything and b) my brain finishes developing (I think), so I'm feeling pretty hopeful that I my gender might settle as something or at least become more stable. If not, I've got my whole life head of me to get used to it. I'm sure I'll manage. Just gotta get over this stupid angst right now. lol

Quote from: Edge on June 04, 2012, 10:30:06 PM
Just gotta get over this stupid angst right now. lol

Don't know if it helps, Edge, but when I'm involved with angst, it helps to focus on what I'm giving the other people in my life. Helps me get out of myself.