If I had any words of wisdom, I would pass along these things:
You are not alone. You're not crazy. Your transgendered feelings don't go away no matter how good your public disguise. Seek help from a professional. Read, study, listen and learn from others here (on this, and other fora) and in the community. Don't hurt yourself, others, or act in potentially self destructive behavior. Accept support of others and allow them to lean on you for support.
Simply Lisa