How am I not insane? I mean, I'm essentially a man that hates being called a man, would prefer to be called a girl, and wants to dress in women's clothes. A transguy I'm friends with on another forum was telling me about puberty as a girl, and I couldn't help but envy him. He mentioned that he had recently started his period, and I found myself jealous. I might hear girls making jokes about their tampons, and I feel like I should be able to relate; I can't help but wish that I knew what it's like to use them, or to be penetrated during sex, like a real girl. How can anyone read that without thinking that I'm just sick?
How do you consider a guy sane, when he wants to shove a tampon up his vagina?
Some people try to equate LGBT people with pedophiles, and how do I know they're wrong? People will try to console and comfort each other, saying that it's okay, there's nothing wrong with you, you can't help feeling this way... wouldn't pedophiles say the same things? They don't think they're hurting people, do they? And neither do we- so what's the difference between us?
So how can I say that I'm not just insane? Why should I bother- why not just throw myself in a mental hospital for the rest of my life?
If I were sane, I'd be able to look at myself in the mirror without covering my face, I'd be able to shower without trying to ignore my genitals. I wouldn't be jealous of girls for their bodies, their lack of erections when aroused, or their ability to menstruate- even real girls don't want that, so why would I? Unless I'm just completely insane?
I;m disgusted by my body for being so male, and I'm disgusted by my mind for not being male. What else is there?
