Well after much resistance (from me) I finally agreed to try another ad. I am very happy I did. They put me on zoloft and it is working wonderfully. I have been on it for about 5 months now and dr says she is going to make one more adjustment to the dosage and I should be good. She is moving me from 100 to 150 mg a day. It is so nice to feel calm again and not have the noise in my head anymore. It has also helped me with my gender identifier and to know where I feel more comfy.

I LOVE WHO I AM  and thats a girl.....LOL

Personally I don't see AD's as any different to any other medication. If you need it you take it, it doesn't entail any moral judgement. 
I am slowly titrating off mine and hopefully will be off them in another month or so.  When I started on them I definitely needed them.

Karen.