Hey everyone, my name is Keelie, the Korean name I like to go by is Choon-Cho, given to me by my lovely dongseng <3 Yoojin. The name I was born with, was Kiah. Unlike some of my " closer " MtF friends, I'm not happy with keeping the name I was born with. I prefer to be androgynous, but a name like Kiah, pronounced /k-eye-uh/ - Just doesn't cut it for me. I chose Keelie for a number of reasons. My family allegedly has celtic influences, be it Scottish, Irish or Cornish- we're not sure, but I thought it sounded a bit like " Shannon " or " Aisleigh " but also because I like Keys, I'm a weird collector of skeleton keys. Some may say that Keelie seems more femme than my previous name but I beg to differ, most people brush me off as a guy when I introduce myself as Keelie - nobody second guesses me. I've had far more second guessing with my original name and plus I just don't like it. So theres that.
I'm 25, from the Sunshine State- home of hurricanes, tornadoes, oranges, and the elderly. I'm an artist, I love to sing, and I love to dance. When I make up enough money to change my entire wardrobe I'll be investing in the Korean fashion Ulzzang. It's pretty much the equivalent of American Hipster, except its a little more androgynous. I plan on getting a job with a radio station asap so I can develop my vocal experience- and then save up the money to get on T and also get an agent- after which I hope to go to Korea, and see what life has for me there.
I'm currently studying Korean and I'm very enamored with the culture and language itself. I hope to make it over there as a potential voice actor and or drama star. I have a loving mother who supports me, and I haven't faced a lot of misfortune as far as explaining myself. I get the typical things like " Hey you're a beautiful girl and you're wasting your life wanting to be a guy " - or " Women are gods gift to men, why would you want to change that? " - Or even " You'll be killing off the person I know if you do this. " - I've actually recently been told that since I decided I 1. Do not have the money for bottom surgery and 2. Don't find it necessary- that I will not be considered a man, and that the vast majority of the Trans community will be insulted that I want to be CONSIDERED a man because I will be misinterpreted as just being a FETISH-ist. I find that hard to believe and think its very close minded to assume I am not a man just because my lower genitalia doesn't entirely correspond. That's like calling a war vet who has lost his junk- a woman. Or a man who was born with ovaries, a woman because of it. Unless the person wishes to identify as such- why harp on them for it?
I also identify as a gay male. Uhm, though I've run into a word that fits me a lot better. I suppose you'd say I'm Homo-flexible? I prefer men ( trans or otherwise - a man is a man ) - but if I fall in love with someone... thats how it is.
So I just came here looking for acceptance, I found this place when I went searching for hand comparisons to males and wondering if it had any relevance to transgendered males. I have to admit terms like " Cis " gendered confuse me. I only use Trans in reference to people like myself who were born to the incorrect gender- but Cis for me just feels weird. I know I'm a man, I understand I was born in the wrong body- but it seems awkward to throw a word like Cis in front of anything. So theres my rant. I apologize for any errors or potentially anyone I've insulted. Please forgive me.
~ Keelie.
