Hi everyone.
I was watching these forums a long time, I think three or four years already? I don't really remember. Just recently I decided to register and participate in the discussions because I was only two months out from GRS.
My name is Marion, I'm a mtf-TS in the early thirties, live in Germany and work as a lawyer. After high school I moved to another city and started to begin transition already. About six years ago I officially came out to all my family, friends and workmates. Hormones and facial hair removal treatments I started already a year earlier.
Due to job circumstances and an unexpected phase of prolonged depression where I wasn't able to work (~12 months) I finally decided to be ready for GRS surgery. It will take place in a couple of weeks at the end of August in Krefeld, Germany. Surgery is being conducted in two separated procedures, the second will follow about two months after the first and usually contains only cosmetic improvements.
Hoping to be recovered again by the beginning of 2013, I plan to have FFS as well. I'm on hormone medications now for about seven years, so it is highly unlikely any more improvement will happen to my face just through hormonal influence. I had some consultations already but I haven't yet decided for a specific surgeon.
In RL only old friends and my family know of my past. I guess most of my workmates consider me just another woman who looks a wee bit more masculine than others. My voice is kinda indifferent, meaning neither female nor male. I had no voice therapy, somehow I managed to change it myself over the years.
Regarding relationships, I never had any neither with men nor women. Before I came out, I tried it twice but rather feeling forced to it because my friends were suspecting me to be homosexual. I wasn't. But I wasn't interested in a relation to women as well. I can't really explain it but I guess I was simply too preoccupied with what was going on with myself. After the coming-out I dated about a dozen men but mostly without having success. There was one who apparently had no problem with me as a peri-op TS. He was a pretty clever guy but we lost contact due to live far apart from each other.
Despite my previous dates, I cannot really tell whether I'm hetero- or homosexual. Although I like men and I only met with men so far, I think I wouldn't really care if the person I would fall in love with is male or female.