Hello there, i am a 19 y/o who has had thoughts about transgender in the past and felt so strong about it that i had come out to my mother at the age of 17 and decided to see a therapist. after some sessions we both decided since i had no way of channeling my feelings or even describing why i felt this way, that we should quit the sessions. i honestly thought that the feelings were gone but just like before they've slowly been creeping back into my head. now that i'm a bit older and mature i'vebeen able to channel my thoughts and feelings / desires. the only issue with this is my mother has accepted that the feelings are gone and im currently in a job where lets say breakthroughs have been made recently, but not for transgenders. i've never considered myself gay or even bisexual but i have had thoughts of experimenting. i've had plenty of girlfriends and dont find myself completely 'repulsive'. i can honestly say i don't think it's my need to be a woman as much as it is my having absolutely no desire to continue life as a male. but it's so much so i'm willing to cross the bridge as long as i'm not considered 'male'. can someone please help me out and lend a helping hand to somebody who is very confused, maybe just some conversation on my feelings? thanks.

a little bit about me im 6' tall even, roughly 130-135 pounds. obviously very lean. i've cross dressed before and thoroughy enjoyed it, but that was years ago, i look alot like my mother but am often told i act and think like my father. my dad knows about this issue from before because i couldnt keep it from him and he accepted it very easily. pretty much my entire life i've had no father figure or male role model to look up to, since my father was never around. the issue with the first time coming out was my mom accepted it the first night i told her and fought my almost every step of the way on it. i understand her feelings as her son would no longer be the child she's known and loved for 17 years at the time. also another issue i've thought about is my voice, it's pretty damn deep. but i'm very good with impressions which gives me a little wiggle room with how i can make myself sound. i've played sports all throughout highschool, but im a pretty quiet and reserved individual. i love drawing and i honestly think the female body is art which may have something to do with why i want that for myself so much. i love telling jokes and laughing, i love trucks and sports but i've recently discovered a huge hobby is personal grooming. shaving my legs and other areas has been alot of fun and i love the way i look and feel. maybe this helps with some insight?

Quote from: Metora on August 01, 2012, 11:39:50 PM
a little bit about me im 6' tall even, roughly 130-135 pounds. obviously very lean. i've cross dressed before and thoroughy enjoyed it, but that was years ago, i look alot like my mother but am often told i act and think like my father. my dad knows about this issue from before because i couldnt keep it from him and he accepted it very easily. pretty much my entire life i've had no father figure or male role model to look up to, since my father was never around. the issue with the first time coming out was my mom accepted it the first night i told her and fought my almost every step of the way on it. i understand her feelings as her son would no longer be the child she's known and loved for 17 years at the time. also another issue i've thought about is my voice, it's pretty damn deep. but i'm very good with impressions which gives me a little wiggle room with how i can make myself sound. i've played sports all throughout highschool, but im a pretty quiet and reserved individual. i love drawing and i honestly think the female body is art which may have something to do with why i want that for myself so much. i love telling jokes and laughing, i love trucks and sports but i've recently discovered a huge hobby is personal grooming. shaving my legs and other areas has been alot of fun and i love the way i look and feel. maybe this helps with some insight?

if you want to express your female side I suggest to crossdress again and once your comfortable go a lgbt venue. A step further would be taking p-estrogen and t-blockers, not HRT but herbal pills for small gradual affects. If its not what you expected then theres no harm in returning to your old self.

I definitely want to try anything to see how i feel, unfortunately the nature of my career field doesn't allow me to take any body altering drugs without a referral from the doctor and such a thing just by the nature of this is impossible.