Hi, I am a straight female and partner to a pre op mtf transwoman. I stumbled into the relationship purely by accident as a supportive friend and have managed to find my ideal partner who I love regardless of gender, I fell in love with a person
We get on so well, we are two of a kind, both absolutely crazy! Despite my absolute love for my partner (couldn't imagine life without her now), I am feeling somewhat low at the moment. We have been out twice in public both as females. I didn't feel uncomfortable like I thought I would and we even held hands! I do have a few worries that keep reducing me to tears, I keep hiding away to cry in private as I don't want my partner to see me cry. When she saw me cry before, she presumed it was because she was having a female day and that seeing her like that bothered me, it wasn't that at all and I would never want her to feel like that (we are taking a slow approach for both our benefits). Things that are bothering me which I don't feel I can talk to her about are, how HRT will affect her and if her feelings for me will change, kids (I do already have a son but would love more children), marriage, how sex will change in the future (I feel selfish thinking this but like I said I am a straight female and this I feel is one of my needs). It is getting close to the time when she will be living as a female full time and all these worries are building up. Like I said, she is my perfect partner, caring, loving, the person I would like to spend the rest of my life with, but I just need some help understanding things for myself. Thank you for taking the time to read this. Apart from my worries, I am the happiest person in the world with my partner
