Well, as you probably guessed, I'm fairly new to this forum, been coming here a few days to get a feel for the community and I love it... So, yay! Here I am, you may all bask in my glow now... LOL just joking, I'm really not that conceited... I'm actually rather bashful and polite... prolly too much so for my own good....
So, what 'bout me?..... I been transgendered (something about that term seems wrong to me *shrugs*) for as long as I can remember, since before I ever knew what transgendered was or could even understand it. I always acted a bit femme, even as a small child... and as you probably guessed, that led to alot of ridicule and teasing when I was little (being called a "->-bleeped-<-" when I was 8 or even younger and not even knowing what it meant), not to mention I had my fair share of getting beat up over it... But, I've moved passed all that, it was around 13, from a talk-show (of all things), that I heard of "transsexualism" and it hit me like a hammer, POW! It was another 2 years before I started dressing in secret, trying on makeup when no one was around, etc. I found I was extremely good at it from the get-go, especially color coordination... another year after that, I would take clothes out with me to my "girlfriend's" (she was a closet lesbian, so we used our fake relationship as a cover for our "problems") and got the nerve to go out dressed... that was the year I met my first Boyfriend, Micheal (who I will never forget, because he treated me like a LADY, such a sweety), who took me to his Junior Prom as a girl, was so exhilarated to be accepted as a girl at his school (we were in separate counties, diff schools).
I was in the military after I graduated for a bit.... served in less than happy places, which eventually got me wounded, and througha long story I won't go through here, I eventually got kicked out for being trans... God Bless America... lol
So, I remained in the closet, very stealth, even from my own family until this passed holiday season, where I finally had enough living double lives and decided to come out and move my transitioning along... it went WAYYYYY better than expected, though I did lose a few friends, almost all of my family was accepting and none were surprised at all, my mom was positively beaming and happy and has been so awesome, as has my siblings... I know my dad still has issues, but he says he loves me no matter what, and I know he'll come around sooner or later....
Anyway, that's alot more about me than I tell most people... I will have plenty of tales to spin... and I am glad to be in a community I can feel safe communicating these things too, that will listen and understand...
*hugz n kissez*
