It gotta be easier than this.

[Lucy]

I dont think that anyone on this site would endorse or consider self medication. If you are please stop and get help.

[Wendy]

Dear Kiera and Lucy,

I do not condone what I do.  I do not recommend that anyone do it. 

I am seeking help at Susan's Place since I have kept a whole lifetime of TG issues locked in my head.

The psychiatrists have had 30 years to years to treat me and I feel like I have more benefit talking to the people at Susan's.

Wendy, why on earth would you think your "meds" are not supposed to make you feel better? Are you looking at demasculation as a form of well deserved self-punishment instead?

Kiera maybe that is partially correct.  It does not explain all the stuff early in my life.  Also "well deserved" implies you are bad.  I sure feel guilty for taking the meds.  I also feel ashamed of the TG issues.

Am I punishing myself for being TG'ed? 

Please continue on your thoughts.  I'm listening.

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Dear Lucy,

Actually the people here at Susan's are helping.  However I do have TG issues, depression, anxiety, self-worthlessness and other issues all in one head.  I am trying to understand if the TG issues have precipitated the other issues or if I would have had depression independent of TG.  I think TG might be the root cause.

Please continue.  I do know the people at Susan's have saved me from unknowingly destroying my body at least one time.

Thank you for sharing.
W

[Lucy]

Wendy we are here and listning, please lookafter yourself. I am sure tha you have TG ìssues you cant denigh that n without a dout that is t underline problem but please please get help. You need an endo. To sort out ur medication and a doctor to talk about the TG issues.