Courtney's life begins here, redux

[Courtney G]

Sorry to hear your partner isn't as accecepting of your changes as she could be. Still it is nice to have breasts for yourself more than anything. Mine are also rounded out now. I guess that means they are Tanner stage 4 or 5 by now.

Thanks. It was a calculation I made. I was already in my mid 50s when my egg cracked and I told my wife (my girlfriend at the time). She wasn't happy but she accepted me and we slowly moved forward, as we continue to do today. My "new" body is pretty normal for both of us but she has some difficulty with my newfound body positivity as her body ages. I don't really get much validation from her.

I've read countless accounts of lives being torn apart after one comes out, of pain and loss, and I consider myself very lucky, especially at this age when so many know they can't come out without losing almost everything. Fortunately, HRT has helped quell my desire for intimacy but it's still difficult at times.

I think mine are Tanner V, although they could be IV. I can't imagine them getting much bigger on this torso of mine. But I don't complain!

[ChrissyRyan]

Courtney, you sound like such a nice person.  Thank you for your willingness to share.



Chrissy

[Northern Star Girl ✅]

  @Courtney G
Dear Courtney:
Your description of your body hair after years of HRT is much like mine. 
I have not needed to any shave body hair areas for years now. 

I now no longer need to undergo Electrolysis anymore....  a big savings $$$

Also what you described about your breasts is very similar to my breasts after years of HRT.
They are plenty big ...and soft, but nicely perky... 😀
I started HRT back in March of 2015, just over 11 years ago and been Full-Time since December 2016.

I am wishing you well in you continuing journey and please keep updates coming.
      ❤️
HUGS, Danielle [Northern Star Girl]

[Courtney G]

@ChrissyRyan Thank you, love - that's very kind. Well, I can be quite sarcastic, almost sardonic at times with a biting whit. But I consider myself a good person and the idea of coming off as mean breaks my heart. I was never the bully growing up; I hung out with the nerds and weirdos because I felt I belonged with them.

@Northern Star Girl: After 4.25 years, I'm really starting to see a more female overall body shape. As I understand it, those curves are more a part of the 5-10 year plan than the 1-5 year one. Was that your experience? I feel it's important to me to present an unmistakably female profile and that goes beyond simply having breasts. It seems that switching to estradiol injections from patches earlier this year has turbocharged some changes, even after years of HRT.

[Lori Dee ✅]

I think mine are Tanner V, although they could be IV. I can't imagine them getting much bigger on this torso of mine. But I don't complain!

The difference between Tanner stages is:

Stage 4: Areola elevated above the contour of the breast, forming a "double scoop" appearance
(think "puffy" nipples)

Stage 5: The areolar mound recedes into a single breast contour with areolar hyperpigmentation, papillae development, and nipple protrusion

Just clarifying that it is not about breast size.

[Northern Star Girl ✅]

@Northern Star Girl: After 4.25 years, I'm really starting to see a more female overall body shape. As I understand it, those curves are more a part of the 5-10 year plan than the 1-5 year one. Was that your experience? I feel it's important to me to present an unmistakably female profile and that goes beyond simply having breasts. It seems that switching to estradiol injections from patches earlier this year has turbocharged some changes, even after years of HRT.

@Courtney G
Dear Courtney:

YES, definitely more a part of a 5-10 year plan than a 1-5 year plan.
Like most things concerning how HRT changes the body, it is a "painfully" slow process
that works differently, slower, quicker, more dramatic, less dramatic in every body - YMMV. 
  The overused expression of "I want it all, and I want it now" definitely does not apply.

Usually not noticeable at frequent viewings but after being patient for a few years.... it becomes
wonderfully apparent. 
I did not end up with an exceptionally curvaceous body, but definitely female.  When things
finally were getting going with my body appearance after 3 or 4 years l had NO problems in the
women's restrooms, changing and locker rooms.
100% passable with very few exceptions.

HRT does not do it alone.... diet and exercise is a must.

I am 5 foot, 4 inches in height and weigh 120 pounds +/- 
With HRT I did lose a lot of muscle mass but I never was a super strong person.

[Courtney G]

@Lori Dee That's the thing, I've had puffy, protruding areolae since very early on and I've read that some people reach Tanner V and still have that, so I really don't know. I definitely do have a "mound on mound" appearance, though.

@Northern Star Girl Oh, how I'd love to be 5' 4" rather than 5' 11"! I don't want to stand out in a crowd; I want to blend in. I only weigh 170 pounds at this height so I suspect our body fat percentage is similar.

[Northern Star Girl ✅]

@Courtney G  @Lori Dee

I have a theory... the weight I lost in muscle mass went directly to my boobs...
sounds reasonable to me. 🙃

HUGS, Danielle[Northern Star Girl]

[Courtney G]

I have a theory... the weight I lost in muscle mass went directly to my boobs...
sounds reasonable to me.

Same!

[Stottie Girl]

@ChrissyRyan Thank you, love - that's very kind. Well, I can be quite sarcastic, almost sardonic at times with a biting whit. But I consider myself a good person and the idea of coming off as mean breaks my heart. I was never the bully growing up; I hung out with the nerds and weirdos because I felt I belonged with them.

@Northern Star Girl: After 4.25 years, I'm really starting to see a more female overall body shape. As I understand it, those curves are more a part of the 5-10 year plan than the 1-5 year one. Was that your experience? I feel it's important to me to present an unmistakably female profile and that goes beyond simply having breasts. It seems that switching to estradiol injections from patches earlier this year has turbocharged some changes, even after years of HRT.

I think we are around the same length of time on HRT and you are right the significant body shape changes have only recently started to happen, body fat on thighs and butt, much slimmer arms, much more significant muscle loss. I would say you are bang on with the 5-10 year projection. It is a slow process but I'm glad as it means the exciting journey can continue for quite some time yet!

By Lori's definition my boobs are defnitely tanner 5.

I'm 5'7" so split the difference between you but I agree, I would love to be 5'4". Oh and size 8 or 9 (UK) shoes too. Being UK10, that is the worst i'm just on the edge of all the great womens shoe options. Weirdly I used to have to buy size 12 shoes so I have lost two sizes, I'm praying for just 1 more size as there are loads of shoe options at size 9!

[Lori Dee ✅]

Well, I have not lost any weight in several months, and no boob growth.

I think this study confirms the theory!