So, I've been been lurking on here for a few months gaining as much knowledge as I could from everyone else's experiences. I finally found the courage to post and of course this is the first place I decided to post. My name is Emma Leah. I am a 34 year old female in the extremely early stages of transition. I know it will be a bumpy road but what road in the world doesn't have bumps right?
I'm unfortunately a bit of an introvert
but I'm hoping to improve that situation in the near future. I ride a '77 KZ1000 motorcycle, I have two inside kitties to keep me company and I live so far out in the country that my driveway is a half mile long. I do enjoy my privacy but I don't enjoy the loneliness.
I had a hard time growing up in school being in a hick town of about 400 people. Everyone knew everyone. I knew when I was young that my body parts didn't match how I really was supposed to be. Dealing with the constant bullying, due to other circumstances, made it so hard to be myself I didn't bother trying. At that time I didn't even know there was a name for how I was feeling.
By the time I was in my early twenties I had a fiance and I put my feelings on hold for her until I couldn't stand it any more. After 4 and a half years I came out to her and she secretly decided to marry someone else. That burned me down to my core. I think that's when I became a recluse.
I still didn't know at the time the options available to me because I couldn't find anyone I felt comfortable enough to confide in. But I did start living the way I felt I should but only in private. Then along came, to me, a more accessible internet. I was like a vacume, sucking up all the information I could get my eyes on. Now at the age of 34 I have the steady job and income to start my first steps. Finding a good therapist, endo and primary doctor to get this giant ball of mine rolling along that bumpy road.
I am extremely happy to have found Susans Place. I'm hoping to find friends to travel, and hold hands with along our rigorous journey. I hope that some day I can be just as helpful as all of you have been
Emma Leah
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