New Arab Trans Woman

[Haya]

Hello Susan's community.

I'm Haya, 28 years old, A Syrian transgender woman. I didn't start any treatment yet because I didn't have the opportunity to start. My look is already feminine even without hormone treatment ( thanks to the high level of estrogen in my blood ) so although most of times I feel sad because I wasn't born as a cis woman but because my look is feminine and I'm even more beautiful ( as a female ) than many cis women, that in the other hand makes me feel happy and encourages me to start my sexual transition because I already know that I can pass perfectly. I love the feminine world and I want to live each second of my life as a female.

The most thing that delay my transition is that I don't want to start alone, I'm looking for a trans woman around my age who have a similar situation so we can be friends and do our transitions together and support each other.

Now I'll talk in Arabic :

أنا هيا . امرأة متحولة من سوريا. لسه ما بدأت أي علاج سواء هرموني أو جراحي لأنو ظروفي ما كانت بتسمح. جسمي بالأساس مؤنث إلى حد كبير بفضل المستوى العالي لهرمون
  الاستروجين بدمي و هالشي عطاني سبب إضافي لكون متشجعة إني ابدأ برحلة التحول و لكن عم دور على صديقة وضعها بيشبه وضعي و تكون لسه ما بدأت أي علاج و عندها نية
جادة للتحول فوقتها ممكن نتعرف و نسافر سوا على بلد يكون مناسب و نبدأ رحلة التحول الهرموني و من ثم الجراحي سوية و نكون صديقتين و نوقف دائماً مع بعض لأنو مرحلة التحول الجنسي هي مرحلة شاقة و صعبة كتير و مليئة بلحظات كآبة و يأس و أنا ما بدي عيش هيك مرحلة و أنا وحيدة.

و على العموم إذا في هون نساء متحولات عربيات يا ريت تردوا بهالموضوع و تتواصلوا معي لأنو أنا فعلاً بحاجة لصديقة متحولة تكون متلي و تحس بمعاناتي و اقدر افتحلا قلبي و نتناقش عن القضايا اللي بتهم النساء المتحولات

و شكراً لكن

هـيـا

[Allison S]

I love the arabic writing!! I wish I could read and write it like all my older siblings do.

I'm 27 and just started transitioning with hrt. I don't really like talking about my looks because it makes me dysphoric and anxious but some friends tell me I look good... I'm more in this to finally show the world what I feel inside. What I've always felt!

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[Haya]

Hi dist123 ...

What you mentioned is interesting, do you have an Arab origin?

Actually my look is important to me but without exaggeration. I just don't like to be less beautiful or feminine than a cis woman after I pass as a woman. I used to take care of my look since my puberty, my hair and body in the way that normal girl does, so I can say somehow I grew up as a female at least inside my room and in front of the mirror.

Anyways the standards of beauty is different from woman to another.

[Allison S]

Hi! I guess I'm a modest buttercup lol except I'm probably reserved so I don't shatter my own ego because of my limitations

I was born in Jordan but moved with my family at 5 years old.

I'm sure you are beautiful!

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[Haya]

It sounds interesting. I guess you are lucky because in Jordan it was to be impossible to start your transition, but I wonder what do your family think about that.

Thank you sweetie I think you are more beautiful. 

[Allison S]

I always wondered what it would be like had I stayed. I'm sure it would've been a lot harder!
Are you living in Syria now?


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[Haya]

Yes in Syria. my plan is to relocate next year to another country and after that I can start my transition safely.

[Sabrina99]

Yes in Syria. my plan is to relocate next year to another country and after that I can start my transition safely.

I hope life works out well for you

[Rachel_Christina]

I too just like Allison love the Arabic wrighting. It looks like Art.
I always wanted my friend Abdullah to do me a few lines for a tattoo.

I hope you get things organized so that you can get your transition moving girl!!
Syria seems like such a scary place right now, especially with all the fighting that's going on.
I hope you are in a safe area.
Hugs, Rachel

[MaryT]

Hi Haya, I wish you well in your transition.

I studied Arabic for a couple of years in primary school, many years ago, but regretably I did not continue learning.  I translated your Arabic script using Google Translate but Google Translate has its limitations.  For example,
"I really need a mutant friend who will follow me ... " is presumably not a very good translation of what you wrote.

Above all, keep safe.  Parts of Syria are obviously very dangerous now for anyone.  I also know that trans or gay people fear for their lives in some Middle Eastern countries.

[arasisy19]

hey haya i just wanted to say that i hope you are ok and did what you always wanted i'm trying the same thing but from another country i hope it works too. >>

[Natali400]

اهلين هيا

أنا ناتالي

الأمور متشابه

إذا تحبي نتعرف على بعض

[MaryT]

اهلين هيا

أنا ناتالي

الأمور متشابه

إذا تحبي نتعرف على بعض

I'm sure that we will all like getting to know you.

Google translator seems to have improved since  it told me that Haya needed a mutant friend to follow her.

I studied Arabic for years af school but although I felt that I was learning more and more, the teacher wrote on my report that I had made no progress.  I still have my father's old grammars, though, so I think that I will have another look at them.