I am Michelle. I am a 58 year old M to F born in South Dakota. Last know address planet earth. At the moment I am keeping most of my family life private. I am working things out emotionally and within my immediate family. Feminine feelings awoke within me when I at puberty. Before then gender did not matter to me. I always felt like the odd person out. Some how I just did not fit. I have only gotten anxiety from taking part in male activities never the big male ego burst. I was just releaved when the activity was over.
I did not have the male competitiive drive except with my younger brother. My interests centered around reading, swimming, enjoying the outdoors, religion, philosphy, history, and science. While I took part in the usual male activities of the fifties and sixties: cub scouts, boyscouts, baseball, limited hunting, football, wrestling, and basketball, I was never very successful and never got the male ego thrill from taking part. I identified more with Dale Evens than Roy Rodgers.
Female clothing was not easily available to me until I was 25, so most of my female life was in a fantacy world.
It has only the last five years of my life that I have been more open about my female identy and dressed more openly.
When I was younger I mentally decided to waite until I was older to deal with this issue. Now with all of lifes entanglements I wish that I had been able to work out my female identity as a youth before I had chosen my lifes work and been entangled with the responsibliities of family, profession, and life in general.
