Cisgendered female Hello

[mixie]

Hello,

I decided to join the site.   I have not lurked on here but I have been following transgender issues for a while now, several years actually.  I often feel like I can relate to a transgender idea of a woman rather than a cisgendered woman.  I'm not sure why.

When I see the stories of MtF transexuals,  it is as if I feel that is me.  But I am a woman?  Make any sense?  Nope.  LOL

I am a woman though who is very tall 5 11 and I tend to have more masculine ways of looking at things.   I at times feel awkward around women,  I tend not to be "one of the girls" but sort of the "mother hen" or "den mother" of women I am around.  Friends tend to lean on me more than I lean on them.  Not sure if this has anything to do with it but I thought I'd post.

So after much yearning and consideration I thought perhaps I ought to just join a forum where I can chat.   I'm happily married and have three kids.  And my life is pretty good.

I'm just curious why I seem to be drawn towards transexual women as peers when I am not one myself.  Is this something that you have seen before?


Hello again and cheers!

[Maya Zimmerman]

mixie - I can't say I understand.  Just as women as so different, so too are we trans women.  It seems to me that if you identify with us, it might be because you transitioned in a way yourself?  You're married with kids now.  Would you say you were a rowdy young adult?  Maybe you see yourself as having lived a more "masculine" life and have now embraced a more "feminine" one?

Any way you slice it, you're welcome here by me.

[stldrmgrl]

Welcome, mixie!

[cynthialee]

Welcome aboard!

(you would make the second FTF I have encountered!) lol

[mixie]

I'm not trying to impose.

I just realized that for the last five years I've been discussing watching looking researching transgender issues from a very personal perspective.  Even feeling such a connection with the stories that are on the internet.   If I had not had three kids I might even suspect I had AIS.   But I'm a FtoF.  I think it has to do with the way I am perceived in society because I am a big woman.   Inside I tend to be retiring and a bit shy but other women treat me as if I am the strong shoulder to cry one or the "guy."  Sometimes I think straight women treat me the way I used to treat my gay guy friends.   I'm not really ever "in" the circle.  Always on the out and treated in a "hey she's interesting" sort of way.  Can't explain it.  Won't try.

But I do have so much respect for transgender issues and have fought the good fight for years online in discussion forums, educating bigots.   Anyways.  I'm surprised to see some of you here that I have followed on youtube. So Hi! 

[MarinaM]

I'm not trying to impose.

I just realized that for the last five years I've been discussing watching looking researching transgender issues from a very personal perspective.  Even feeling such a connection with the stories that are on the internet.   If I had not had three kids I might even suspect I had AIS.   But I'm a FtoF.  I think it has to do with the way I am perceived in society because I am a big woman.   Inside I tend to be retiring and a bit shy but other women treat me as if I am the strong shoulder to cry one or the "guy."  Sometimes I think straight women treat me the way I used to treat my gay guy friends.   I'm not really ever "in" the circle.  Always on the out and treated in a "hey she's interesting" sort of way.  Can't explain it.  Won't try.

But I do have so much respect for transgender issues and have fought the good fight for years online in discussion forums, educating bigots.   Anyways.  I'm surprised to see some of you here that I have followed on youtube. So Hi! 

FtoF the gender spectrum is quite fascinating indeed.

It is hard for someone to impose on an internet forum, it requires great skill and tenacity. You haven't done so yet. I welcome our allies, whatever their stripes may be.

Some of us do youtube, it's a little like free therapy. Feel free to post original topics and ask questions. For the most part, we like to try to educate others with our personal experience. If you have a problem feel free to contact a staff member, you can spot us by the fun colored squares we have above our avatars!

[DebbieS]

I'm not trying to impose.

I just realized that for the last five years I've been discussing watching looking researching transgender issues from a very personal perspective.  Even feeling such a connection with the stories that are on the internet.   If I had not had three kids I might even suspect I had AIS.   But I'm a FtoF.  I think it has to do with the way I am perceived in society because I am a big woman.   Inside I tend to be retiring and a bit shy but other women treat me as if I am the strong shoulder to cry one or the "guy."  Sometimes I think straight women treat me the way I used to treat my gay guy friends.   I'm not really ever "in" the circle.  Always on the out and treated in a "hey she's interesting" sort of way.  Can't explain it.  Won't try.

But I do have so much respect for transgender issues and have fought the good fight for years online in discussion forums, educating bigots.   Anyways.  I'm surprised to see some of you here that I have followed on youtube. So Hi! 

Mixie, what you are saying makes perfect sense.  Not only that, it has given me more ammunition for my own theories on ->-bleeped-<-.  Thank you.

[Devlyn]

Hi Mixie, welcome to Susans! I don't worry about what people call themselves, just be my friend. See you around, hugs, Tracey

[mixie]

Wish this site had like buttons,  so I could like these comments and welcomes!

[MarinaM]

Gracias girly. Just pruning the hedges here, so to speak:

Hi, and welcome to Susans! We have people come to visit us from all over the world, expressing different points of view, and you are likely to find someone to help you along your way Here are some important links and things to ponder as you begin your journey here.

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[DebbieS]

Wish this site had like buttons,  so I could like these comments and welcomes!

Well Mixie, as long as you keep talking about those thoughts, that will be 'like' enough.  They are so good.