I have looked at Susan's for a while so I finally decided to join. I knew from a young age that I was transgendered but like many others I tried to make it go away. I use to wear my mothers panties and bras and when I got caught I was spanked. I isolated myself and had few friends except some girls. I am small boned and looked very feminine all my life (today I am 5'7',130 lb). I was picked on and called a girl; little did they know they were absolutely correct. I dressed on and off for years and purged after feeling guilty. As I got older my GID got worse and I thought about getting rid of my male parts all the time. I got married and tried to be a normal male to no avail. My wife discovered some of my female clothes and when confronted I finally just opened up and confessed all to her. I looked her in the eye and said I could not stand being a guy any more. I suddenly felt free and proud that I was no longer living a lie. She wanted a divorce but said we should be friendly. She also said she always thought I had gender issues and she was glad I finally faced them. She stayed with me for a while and helped me buy the proper clothes. We still stay in touch and are friends. I started therapy and was soon diagnosed with GID. Although I was older I was finally free to do what I should have done years ago. After a year on HRT I went full time and had an orci and implants. I hope to have SRS next year. I was really glad to get rid of my boys and I am now fully passable and and functioning as a woman. I am very happy and love being a woman. My orci allowed me to change all legal documents including my birth certificate. I was born in PA and they accepted the orci letter which stated I had irreversible genital surgery. Social Security also accepted it. In closing my biggest regret was not coming out when I was younger but even thought I am 54 I have some good years left to live as I should have born. I so look forward to SRS next year. I can't tell you how good it feels to be open and accept who you are.
Susan
