Feeling more ftm?

[aleon515]

Hi,

I wonder if anyone else has had this experience. I have thought I was "androgynous" for years but never realized there was such a thing as an androgyne or an identity that was neither male nor female, this felt right a few months ago.

But now I am wondering.

I actually have childhood experiences where I told my parents I was a boy and told them to call me Billy.

Anyway, I started presenting more and more male and the more male I am presenting the happier I feel. I don't really pass but apparently what would seem to be female crossdressing is not really a crime (or even gets me stares). I got a packer (actually a couple) and though I don't really "pack" with it, I wear it around the house and even sleep with it. I don't know but it kind of makes me feel better somehow. Right now I am sitting around the house in my boxer briefs.
I know these are kind of superficial but somehow they make me feel happier.

They also confuse the heck out of me.

I've worked on being more assertive. I made an appt in my given name and told them to call me ___. These kind of things make me feel more confident and I just keep doing them.

Thanks for reading...

--Jay Jay

[Justin 21]

you're not alone remember when we first started talking i thought i was androgynous, but the feelings slowly grew and well here we are

[Ashley]

I can understand were you are coming from on this. I remember when i was about 5 years old i use to ran around out side shirtless cause i wanted to be like the rest of the boys and saw my self as a boy. i really don't remember ever wearing girl clothes growing up i always dressed as a boy.

[Metal Stuart]

I'm at a similar point, in some aspects I'm 100% sure I want to transition while in others I'm still trying to sort out my thoughts

[aleon515]

you're not alone remember when we first started talking i thought i was androgynous, but the feelings slowly grew and well here we are

Yep I do recall. I thought, I'd never feel like this, but here we are.

@Ashley: There are some photos of me running around topless at some young age.

There's something free about the whole thing. I walk out of the house without a purse and think geeze this is so nice.

--Jay Jay

[Natkat]

im opposite,
first when I was out I felt to be very typical male with no doubt and all surgery and homones and you name it,
as I grew up I got to be alittle more gender-queer and non binary..
I still ftm, but I am not that "stickly male" as I was once. im more like, I just do what I like.