Just logging in for a quick note and update. Then I'm off again to work hard and live happy. 21 days on HRT and continuing.
As the title says, "No more pretense". I recently realized that the biggest problem for me was that I was still lying to myself about where I was going. This in turn led to saying and doing things that were so very embarrassing, and in some cases just flat-out humiliating. As stated at least once before, "I'm a slow leaner". So, this journey has taken a couple sensible turns that will obviously change the way I live out the rest of my life. And you know, I am very happy, and there is a deep peaceful beauty inside. It will get rough at times, but even my male road is rough, so a few upsets and breakdowns is nothing new. A great part of life now is that everything is good with my family. A grandson is due very soon, and because of the turns in this road he will never be a stranger to me. Everyone comes to a reckoning at some point, and luckily this one came in time to save me.
I check the forums and read through the threads every 3 or 4 days. It was helping to deal with the "Lost in the woods" feelings I have always had, and it has helped with the way I feel about these changes. Some day I may explain how it helped, but for now I just hope this all translates well when I talk to my GT in a few weeks.
Yes, Kathy is my heart, and from my heart, please take care.
Love Kathy.
