Im all set to pay for my ffs

[Sydneyblue]

Im kinda just staring at it not really sure what im going to do.I am not too confident things are going to work out.Ive been really depressed about my transition as a whole.Ive even consider de transitioning and moving back were im from.I dont know what im going to do.I should be happy but i really can care less about it.Its been a hard couple of years since i started my transition.I think the hardest has been the last 8 months because i realized how masculine my face was and how people still saw me as a guy.Its like i didnt even transition and i feel like a fool.I honestly just dont want to live im sorry but that is how i feel.So this is make or break for me if this FFS dosnt work out i cant se my self going any further its just too painful but than again living as a male in this society i think is much more i really dont know.I need help

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