At this point I have 5 children 19,18,17,9 and 6 months.
No matter what they do it will never change that I love my children with all my heart. This I tell my children all the time, so they know I love them. If I don't say then how will they know?
As far as some parents go, they should be shot!!!!!!! I see it in my own town, were parents put themselves first. My oldest son has been through this with his mother, when he was younger. He lived with me and had to travel 3 hours one way to see his mum. She would spend the weekend reading a book and taking no notice of her son! My son became very upset and refused to go to his mums place. I didn't push him, but I did ring his mother 3 times and asked her to spend time with our son and still nothing happened!
So I was the big nasty prick and rang his mum and cut sick, I did not hold back with the abuse I gave her, I really let her have it! She was destroying my son and I would not allow this to happen! Plus I had asked nicely 3 times!
He was not wanting to see his mother ever again, he was that upset!
My daughter came up the following weekend and asked what I had said to her mother? I asked why was that? Her responce was "Well mum hung the phone up and threw it across the room and burst into tears!". So i explained what was going on, seeing she is my oldest.
This was the best thing that I could have done for my son, cause he now has a really good relationship with his mother!
For me as a single dad and now as a married father/mother, my children come first. I have gone without food and worn, wornout clothes to make sure my children have what they need. Going without is what any good parent should do. I can now no longer sacrifice the things I want to do I need to be me! I stay home and look after our 6 month old, my wife works and is willing to work to pay for anything that I require for my transition, I love my wife! My wife wants nothing more that to see me truly happy, this would be a real big first for me! I have never been truly happy through my life, but that is going to change! I personally can no longer hide the true me, IT'S KILLING ME TO DO SO! I want to live, I want to be happy and I want to be the the real me!
Coming out to my GP was a big thing for me, I have only ever spoken freely to my wife about how I am trapped. I now have an appointment for counseling!
Straight after going to the GP, my wife dragged me into Victoria's cosmetic's to speak to the staff about removing my beard (YES I say, I hate shaving, itchy if I shave and itchy if I don't, can't win but I will!).
So having wife's like we have is sooooooo great! My wife talks about all the things that she can do to help with my transition. She wants to can me Angela and call me her etc. but I have not talked to my family yet, so she is holding back at the moment.
My life is in a spin at this point, things are happening so the tunnel is not so dark. I have a very very very supportive wife who is my best friend. My wife loves the idea of me having breasts ( wish I had them already!) and turning into a women. She is happy to spend what ever it takes to make me passable as a woman. Lucky I wont need too much surgery on my face. I don't have a big brow, just a big nose that will be sorted. My jaw is not overly male , lucky me I say. And my Adams apple is not very big at all!
We are lucky girls to have wife's that want us happy.
To me this is unconditional love, for my wife love's the real me not the cover on the outside, just as I love her for the person I see on the inside. We are going to stay together through my transition and beyond, we love each other and are there for each other through thick or thin, we will be together for the rest of our lives!
We are lucky people to have accepting and loving people in our life's. For me, even if the only person that supports me in my transition is my wife, it wont matter, I will still transition. We will start the transition and then move to a different state, as I want to start living as a woman full time when we move, not to have people remember her as he!
Angela
