Ups and downs

[sam79]

Forgive me, less of a question, more a post to vent.

Until the right HRT dose is found, it's hard going. The hardest part I've found so far. It's like the ups and downs are magnified 

I'm right in the middle of a 'low' again, waiting for a change in my HRT regimen to pick me back up again. This is the third time such time, which like clockwork has started at the three week mark after a dosage change. I can see what's happening, in my skin, in the mirror, in my appetite for the world... T falls, then rises. It's not just me, other people see the difference physically. Blood tests agree.

And internally, to feel the way I was supposed to for a time, then have it ripped away for a while. It's so tiring. -_-. In some ways, this is worse than being pre-transition, not knowing how it feels to feel right.

So I'm expecting a call sometime in the next week to alter my prescriptions in some way or another. While I'm merely trying to survive until then, I can't help but wonder if I'll be back in the dumps for a 4th time. Or more.

I rarely read about this part of the roller-coaster from other transitioning girls... Is it normal?

[calico]

I rarely read about this part of the roller-coaster from other transitioning girls... Is it normal?

Unfortunately its not unheard of, it can some times take a lil bit of time to "level" out and for the body to completely adjust or to find the right combo, and than there is the possibility of the body continuing to fight and not adjust (rare) but not unheard of. This can be a sign of possible thyroid issues, and should be checked out. If the adjustment don't work an orchi can be part of the solution.
either way until it all works out ,even though this may be lil consolidation think  of it as if "aunt flow" has came to town

[sam79]

I'd love to have an orchi done and be rid of the cause, but my therapist tells me that I need to exhaust all other options before I'll get anywhere trying for that.