ok so today i had an appointment with a third mental health professional, the first one i couldnt talk to, the second one thought i was a bit of a joke at first then didnt know what to do with me and then theres the one i saw today.
i was apprehensive of course, that familiar feeling of an urge to vomit that i get whenever i try to talk about it with someone, but she was really nice, not a professional (apart from whatever she learnt from her teaching) but she was open minded and open eared, she even complimented me and said i was pretty androgynus allready. we talked alot about my thoughts on it (like everyone else she said i seemed pretty determined and planned) we also talked about my parents alot, well i say parents i mean mother, its obvious i have a few mummy issues (hey she can be manipulative) but the whole thing left me feeling certain and secure in what i want to do
but finally a therapist i can talk to,
been waiting for one like this for an age
