Envy's a strange thing, isn't it? Like, one of my absolute worst habits is envying other trans women, particularly those who pass without a second glance, and so just visiting this very forum because rather a tentative activity. It's not just the scowling sort of envy either, the aforementioned kind can lead to some serious periods of dysphoria and all-around misery. Not sure whether that's a self-esteem thing or just envy of those who've transitioned successfully, but it's something that I seriously need to address going forward.
Anyway, I mention this because, despite my envy of the above people in particular, I really do fail to take into account what they went through over the course of their transition, it just becomes a very black-and-white exterior view of beauty and happiness. The fact that they are those things is nothing short of fantastic (nobody should have to be miserable, it's no fun), but seeing that often doesn't reflect what they had been through to get to that point. I know some beautiful trans women who've been kicked out of their homes and disowned by their parents, purely for being who they are. Jealousy as a vain concept often doesn't extend to circumstances.
I also envy those who can make clear, concise points.
