Hello everybody!
So some time ago i was really keen on M2F transition. I tried a bit of hormones and i felt great (was attracted to women clothing long ago). But then later i got scared (like many do) and tried to evaluate the price. Since so many things depended on me (like my family and my job) and lack of support and resources (like money and people that would understand this) i decided to stop transition until its too late.
So i chose the M side... After like two or three months of estrogen.
So i have all these things now that probably will not go away. I have wider hips, stretch marks on my legs (they started widening fast), got a thin layer of fat on my breasts (can still feel it), my nipples changed (they became less sensitive but more arousing), but there are other things that changed.
On the last days of my estrogen effects i could feel other kind of feelings, i also started smiling a lot when seeing my male friends at work, i started walking differently, mood changed and girls became less important. After stopping my estrogen four months ago, i notice now changes in my brain. I used to like girls 100%, males did not attract me in any way. But now, i am attracted to males/girls like 30/70. The weirdest thing i noticed is that if i see picture of a naked girl, i like it. But if i see a photo of a naked man, i get erection almost instantly...
I dot feel attracted to men, do not look at them sexually, not at work, not at streets, do still catch eye contact with women, but if i try to watch porn or something, i catch myself enjoying males more... Is this normal? Or maybe thats just some sort of "glitch" like "something forbidden" that attracts me?
Any opinions would be very welcome.