Hi,
Uhm well I guess this year I slowly started to question my beliefs to its core again.
I for much of my childhood only believed in God in reality as a hedge against going to hell, Besides for the Afrikaans culture being linked quite heavily to Christianity, I have always tended to dislike simple answers such as, cause its Gods plan, or God did it.
I probably became an Atheist back in 2009 I think and converted back into Christianity because being afraid of hell (though I never became a literalist), I think I maintained being a 'Christian' because you tend to think well everyone says they are, so maby it's a good thing, but I never really believed the Christian opinion as superior to modern science nor philosophy, so again its kind off my fear of hell I guess lol.
This year my tilting point was, I was discussing the body transplant with my father and he suggested it might not be Gods plan, I thought this to be a rubbish point and yeah it kind off went from there, reading and watching materials available to me swayed me back to agnostic atheism.
I am atheist to the Bible because simply, its texts are not more knowledgeable than modern philosophy, nor scientific and many things are just plain 'stone age' to the time we live in, so besides for cherry picked lines it does not add value to my life. I also reckon a truly intelligent God would understand full well I cannot believe just out of fear of damnation, this would not be sincere nor constructive to my life, I mean I don't obide by the traffic laws because I am afraid of getting caught, I do so because I understand that they are there to protect myself and the other parties involved.
I cant remember where I got this quote, but it sums it up I guess.
It's not free will when the choices are between heaven and eternal torture.
Nella357.