beckster............I know it's easy to say, but please.....don't cut, hon. I know it lets out the pain that is pent up inside, but you already know that it can take on a life of its own, and in the end, make you feel worse than before you started. It is addictive, and to break the addiction takes time, sometimes therapy, and often, some kind of medication. First though, do anything it takes to break the current cycle that won't hurt you. Yes, easy to say, very hard to do......I know. ......Exercise 'til you drop from exhaustion.....long enough to let the pain inside subside.
Do you have some kind of support? if you ever want to email me, I'll listen. If you want me to help, I will try. If you don't, I won't, but lend a sympathetic shoulder. I have long-term, intimate experience with this. If you are in pain inside, please find a friend, or family who you feel comfortable (or not tooo uncomfortable) talking to. You could use some help, and it's hard to do alone.
You asked about your friend? I often turn down an invitation for someone outside my family to treat me, and it's because I don't want to impose. I know lots of people like that. Don't feel insulted or rejected...
When I clicked on this link, I had no idea why. I think someone needed to tell you hello....
hugs,
Bev
