Hugs and welcome
You could look up the following resources for a few thoughts:
there is a website called gayteens dot about dot com where there is a quiz "am_i_trans.htm" . It might help you with a few thoughts, they state a few opinions of others, and explain a few terms. And it might help by showing you are not alone in this.
And you don't have to feel female all the time. A question would be would you prefer a more female body to be more happy ?
And you might look up a brochure for the british NHS called "doh-transgender-experiences.pdf" . Only thing I would disagree with is page 7, where they state stress, instead many experience relief.
It states that being trans has some biological connections, which is imo socially a bit better acceptable, and it might help with self acceptance.
Well its a big spectrum, for example from androgynous to full transition...
just take the time you need to find a position you are comfortable with...
and remember there are many who have gone through this and reached their goals eventually
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You could play around a bit with hair and clothing style... womens or unisex trousers, sweaters one or two sizes bigger... second hand stores could be a good source. It can be really fun.
Please reach out...
You should think about talking to a counselor... preferably a gender therapist...
and you could call at the next lgbt center near you and ask for some counseling...
there might even be support groups...
you might say at home you want counseling, either for gender or for emotional purposes, and pick someone who has, amongst others, gender on their list...
and for immediate help you could look up helplines in your language... there might even be transgender helplines...
people are there to help and give advice ...
Well its a process... I'd say take the time you need, but keep at it... ask questions, alone writing sometimes helps...
and come here, people will support you
hugs
