SLAP!
Feel better now?
Pre-surgery jitters are normal. All you should have to do to reaffirm the necessity for this step is to remember all the things that have led you here.
For me, it was a nip-and-tuck battle right up to the day I checked into hospital - life's circumstances seemed to conspire to prevent me from getting surgery. It was not until I was tucked into bed the night before SRS that I realized it was actually LIKELY that I was going to make it.
For me, there was NOTHING left of the past - I had to give it all up to get to SRS - family, friends, a budding career, life's savings - all gone. I had no idea what lay ahead. But all I had to do was think of the pain and agony that had brought me to that point and I knew I had no choice.
Nearly 32 years later, I look back on my life (since then) and marvel at how full and wonderful it has been, at the beautiful things that have happened, and the wonderful things I have been able to do, at the multitude of great friends I have had. I marvel at how full my life has been and how empty it was before SRS.