my journey ends

[Beverly]

Yesterday my journey reached its end and I underwent my GRS. It has taken 4 years in total from asking the GP and having a meltdown in the local shrink's office.

It has been a journey filled with joy, tears, amazement, happiness, bafflement and anger. 

I now lie here in my hospital bed on my last lap. After this I am done with transition and I intend to live my life to the full. I have come out of this process a better person than when I went in, but all journeys have an end and an old binary gendered person like me looks on at this nonbinary, genderfluid stuff in incomprehension.  Things seem to have moved on.

I have helped those I can help, and those that I cannot help I have referred to others.  Like Gandalf the White, it is time I moved on myself.

Over the years I have been in and out of here many times but I think this may be my line in the sand.

To those of you travelling along behind me,  my principal advice would be "believe in yourself". It is the key to everything.

[Ms Grace]

Congrats. Speedy recovery!

[Beverly]

Congrats. Speedy recovery!

I am already doing press-ups  . (not)

[stephaniec]

congrats

[Mariah]

Congrats

[JLT1]

Congratulations....  It's a been a heck of a journey, hasn't it? 

We wish you well.

Hugs

Jen

[Laura_7]

Congratulations 

Wish you a speedy recovery...

and lots of fun along the way...


hugs

[Beverly]

Hi ladies

It has been an eye opening ride and I am glad that I have reached what I consider my endpoint.  This what I had always envisioned as the end. Perhaps I will be wrong and some new endpoint will present itself.  Time will tell so tgere is no point in worrying.

The patience of those of you who help here is amazing and I know that I could never do it so kudos to you all.

Thanks for all your support over the years x x

[ainsley]

Awesome!!  Very happy you have found and end to your journey.

I can see why you say and feel that.  I am on a similar quest.  My grs is in 23 days.  However, and to put it in video game terms (Skyrim comes to mind):  I see it as completing the main quest, but I still have other side quests I would like to complete.  Did I beat the game?  Yep, but I can still go through the other little quests to complete my character.  Make sense?

[Rejennyrated]

As an evident Tolkien devotee you musct recall that Adventures never truly have an ending. They just reach a point where others come along and the focus of the story shifts to them.

The thing about endings is that, as Bilbo discovered, the ending of one tale is but the opening chapter of the next.

I transitioned and lay in my SRS bed so many decades ago it is probable you weren't even born, and susans certainly wasnt. I have helped out with many support groups, as someone who had finished my journey, each of which I have left when I felt I could no longer contribute. I was even a moderator on susand for a few years but deleted my account  when my late partner became ill, and yet here I am back again, now on the verge of being a doctor, and still seeking to offer support to a demographic I know rather well.

So if I was you I would enjoy your sabbatical, but perhaps bear in mind that fate may one day bring you back. Au-revoir and good luck.

[.Christy]

Im so happy for you!! 

[OCAnne]

Congratulations, welcome to the other side!  You may find womanhood 2.0 to be as much a journey as your transition.
Many new discovery's and surprises await you.

Anne

[Sharon Anne McC]

*
Allow this bit of philosophy ...

Your GCS is merely the period at the end of a sentence in the middle of a paragraph of a book you have read from its beginning but the future chapters have not yet been written.

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[Beverly]

Thank you ladies.

Rejennyrated - you are only two years older than me so we are both old foggies :-) nonetheless you are probably right. Tran-ness will always be part of me and no doubt it will have an effect.

At least the food here is excellent which helps and being quiet hospital in the middle of the Yorkshire countyside means I can sleep with my window open until the dawn chorus awakes me. Who knows, there might even be a hobbit hole under that tree over here ... ;-)

[Beverly]

I have been discharged and I will be back home in a couple of hours.  My stay here has been wonderful and now it is just a case of getting on with life.

I do not feel in any way special or unusual.  I hsd thought that post GRS i might feel different about myself but I  just feel normal and that makes the whole thing worthwhile

[katrinaw]

Congratulations and best wishes to you moving forward...

Its a mammoth effort and you have gotten through it all, and as you say giving hope and direction for others in the process...

Good luck

Katy xxxx