same here, totally emotional about haircuts since as far as I can remember (my dad used to take me to the barber shop... early life trauma)
And I went through a highly even paralyzing month last year when my long hair mid-back I took 9 years to grow just tangled all up in a big ball I never could de-tangle and had to cut after spending 28 days straight combing them and trying to save them, like 12-16 hours a day (my dog was depressed every time I reached for the comb). I had to resolve to throw a scissor in there for it pulled so much I feared to lose them all... And I ended up with an asymmetric hairstyle that looked very feminine and unveiled all the feminine sides of my face and actually my feminine manners as well, and 6 months after, I was starting HRT. The 28 days hair episode was a major factor in my decision, it was a highly dramatic moment in my life, and decisive.... and looking back I see that my hair was of major importance in my whole life. And the fact that I spent exactly 28 days trying to untangle my hair takes now for me some kind of a mystic signification (although I'm totally atheist)... I see it as just the sign I had from early childhood, the link I had with the femininity I'm now finally reaching
