Thanks Alison im going to need every bit  
Oh apologys for my langauge ..... i cant remember  posting most of the last one ..... i was feeling kinda stressed out , so i did what hal suggests to dave bowman in 2001 ..... ie : take a stress pill lie down and think things over .....cept i took 2 stress pills went to the bar  and had a couple of double gin and tonics while i proceeded to start and complete  the previous post ......then flaked out and work up 2 hrs later sitting at the bar .....hence all the typos and etc my fingers are to big for those mobile ph keyboards , so i,ll recap somewhat
I felt like typhoid mary  as i had got onto the plane (jumbo airbus )  feeling abit ill and then it started into the flu ànd sure as not 8 hrs in other people started having symptoms too😥
That i was illish didnt prevent one stewardess from trying to pick up ...half my age too and good looking , maybe its my new "dune spice melange blue eye tattoos" or  maybe it might have been my moobs as she did glance down ....i just wish i hadnt had the flu , anyway we chatted about various things and the full thigh sleeve tattoo she was gradually  getting done  she asked how long i was going to be stopped over in dallas and i fibbed saying not long as i could detect she wanted me and her to go out there somewhere ,
i love that series fargo ....hope they continue it might be a while,to the next season though  as the stories are well thought out and intricate 
not a thing you can bash out on demand 
Flight was hellish  cooped up for 15 hrs straight with a developing flu  if you get the choice go  by  boeing dream liner ..... it's  exactly  that
 ....airbus 380 is just that a bus 
Though plenty of room art rear of aircraft to gather and talk although we were told over the intercom  that usa law forbade  gatherings of more than 3 people in one place ....but aussies didnt seem to worry about that hehe
got to Dallas and was impressed  by how efficient  professional and polite  the security people were ....cant say the same for other parts of the airport 
by that time i hadn't  sleep a wink for over 24hrs so i availed my self of one of those micro suit things paid $75 for and hour and ahalf sleep about 40 minutes  had a couple of drinks , 
then went through the doors of the terminal  stood out side for 5 minutes ( it was freezing ) and thought wow im in America  i,m actually  in usa then i went back in and waited for the second leg,of the journey on that one there was one of us seated in the same row  seemed somewhat subjued wasn't  really sure until she asked the mexican lady next to me how to do her imigration form ....i think she was spanish
she did check me out when she thought i was not looking ....but i,m always looking even when i,m not , anyway i thought she made a fine woman amazing  how some girls just need hormones ....but ithink it makes a hell of a difference  if you start out young ....but then again in my case back when i first had feelings they would have thrown  me in the mental hospital (graylands ... a fitting name ) and i did know 3 associates who ended up in that place......nothing good came of it
anyway got to guadalajara  to my prebooked hotel nice enough place but too noisy i stayed there just long enough toget through the worst of the flu then moved to another hotel .....bit far from the touristy spots ....but uber is cheap the locals are friendly but i really should have learned spanish or at least some .....because english is barely spoken here ....thank god for google translate 
Coming here esthetically  was always my first choice but the distance and cost  put it second i had planned on going somewhere else closer , but after mentioning how butch i was i got talked out of it which worked for about a week then Dysphoria kicked in hard 
and i also remembered how long i had desired ffs even before hrt and how i had planned to use the end of this project and the time in between before the next one  to take  my long service leave ( which means i cant work for wages for six weeks ) and had in  fact already set the wheels in motion  for my long service leave and declined the offer to stay on this one and turn the lights out and then get sent to another temp fill in job,  so i thought  like hell .... i'm 54 and a contract worker so i cant afford to take this sort of time off in the middle of the next project not to mention the recovery time which for me will be longer due to the nature of my work 
so i recontacted .....no answer waited 8 hrs then realised i was being stoned walled ..... i just dont get it ,
anyway i'm annoyed  as the surgeon  i  had contacted passed my details on to a  medical tourism type third party .
So anyway i thought what the heck what the hell i,d made the money for ffs by gambling  my lifes savings on crypto currency  which paid off ànd which is financing this adventure  of mine so i went back to my first choice and luckily  there was a date in jan so i booked 
i had planned to get full crowns done here in mexico before ffs so i had left earlier for oz unfortunately  the flu messd up those plans 
so i only have enough time to get some repairs done i think  , however after mexico i think i will spend some time in thailand on a tropical beach or a mountain  hideaway until  i am able to get dental done i,ve got until late march early april til the next project kicks off .....
Why didnt i just go to thailand ? first ? which is so close and comparable cost wise .... well i wanted my ffs to be done by a cacausian surgeon i'm not prejudiced  but i feel that in my case i wanted needed the input of similar concepts of beauty asthetics etc 
i mean its okay for those girls who already have the femme look to go to thailand  with the surgeons there it is a simple matter for them to be enhanced  but i need a an aggressive but artistic surgeon  and Dr  Cardenas is exsactly that and if anyone can salvage me it will be him , also latin people are romantic ,passionate  people as it shows in their architecture  and food and art, and i love the concept of the Dr's wife doing the Rhinoplasty  
 I also looked  at belgium which was a very good comprehensive  package  but it was just way to expensive , as our australia dollar is worth something like 65 us cents and even less euros
As for waiting till i had been on hrt longer yes that is a good idea for the younger ones who have more life in front of them ... i have maybe ten good years in front of me then its all over red rover  like the saying goes "walk a mile in someones boots before you judge them"
hah when i got this new hotel room i ordered a kingsize bed ..... i, m getting one when i get home .....be enough room for me and my 2 cats then so they wont have push me out of bed 😆
well theres more to ponder but after my mix of stress pills and drinks i had my first decent sleep so i  might brave brekkie 
sleep did well though gave my body a bit of room to heal 
Gawd i hope i dont end up like the manthing in an iron mask ....i do believe im getting nervous