You are far from alone with the "Wanting to pull it out of you" desires. How to balance competing forces of not overwhelming others, to jumping back into your hole, being "In their face", sensitive to their sensibilities, giving them time, space, etc.. Just how far can you "push" things without alienating others?
Then add into the mix people you know who are reluctantly accepting, or accepting though you know this is hurting them. The situation between my wife and I. About the only guilt about being trans I still bare. I am hurting her. Far less today then 7 years ago when I dropped the T-Bomb. Far far less today then 10 years ago when I was a ..... Yet hurting her at a time when she needs to see hope in a future life. Needs to know she has a partner to support her while we hopefully obtain the medical care she needs to have a life again. It's a very difficult balancing act. Sometimes it's the 800 lb gorilla in the room. It takes time.
Speaking of "time", or the weeds.... I've always been a baggy clothes sort of guy having been a former fatty and still a poor body image person, especially in male mode. I also have about a B cup, it depends on the bra. For the most part the girls are undetectable in my normal attire unless you are looking for hints. And this is while wearing the now appreciate to wear and appreciated to take off at the end of the day bra
YMMV