I feel better on HRT, even if I had to get used to the new feelings, overall much more pleasant, but sometimes a bit strange, as anything new. I believe that if you really have a dysphoria, the new hormones are better for your brain and wellbeing. It seems that, overtime, your body protects itself against these external drugs, making them less efficient, and you might need higher doses for the same effect. And if you come back to the previous state (as I tried lowering my doses for a month), it becomes very painful and difficult to handle.
This being said, you keep having a dysphoria and you can depress about it.