I've not posted in a while, I've been in a bit of a holding pattern for a few months while the right time to start my RLE slowly came closer.
When people have asked me before if I'm excited or scared, I've always felt a bit 'meh', it was always a distant thing, and I've never let myself really get emotionally invested in the thought. But last night it hit me that basically in six weeks I'll be packing away my man clothes, almost certainly, forever.
I'm really overcome now with lots of different emotions, fear of the future, sadness about loosing the old me and excitement about something wished for for so long might actually come true.
I've come so far in the last couple of years (I'll spare you a repetition of old posts), both physically and mentally. For me it's been a slow gradual process, to discover myself and how far I needed to go.
When I first came to Susan's, I couldn't believe I'd ever have the confidence and conviction this was the right path; and now it feels like the right thing, even with all the doubts my mind.
As some others have done, I'll try to post updates on this thread on my thoughts and experiences up to and through my start of RLE.
Hugs. X
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